It is strange that I hold myself back in so many ways. This pattern might be familiar to you. You make an assumption about yourself. "I don't really know how to, so..." Of course, one's incapacities are very real. The mistake lies in falling back on them as excuses.
There are several things I haven't done yet. Publish a book of poems, or a book of translations. I haven't recorded a cd, etc... I can make all kinds of excuses.